inspiration and all that jazz.

happy friday everyone.

today i woke up earlier than usual and didn't feel sleepy too. must be because i slept early yesterday night,  been like that these last few days.  anyway, today i'm gonna talk about inspiration.

what is inspiration?

inspiration is the process of being mentally stimulated to do or feel something, esp. to do something creative. to inspire is to fill someone with that feeling.

recently, a lot of things have been inspiring me. i get inspiration from everywhere; watching tv, listening to music, things i see when window shopping and people around me. i've been writing short drabbles or scenes of stories based on any idea that comes to mind and then i stop and leave it scattered all over my brain and in my personal computer.

do you know what do you call a person who constantly inspires you?

muse. it's typically a woman, but i think girls too have muses and if it isn't a woman, it's a man. there are a lot of people who inspire me, but i have a special person, my muse, that have been the inspiration to many of my stories. not gonna tell you who it is, but i love my muse a lot.

so, when i was cleaning my little brother's room last night, i found a small empty notebook (+ some pens and a mickey mouse keychain, it's cute) and decided to bring it with me to school this morning. despite the fact that my backpack is completely full, i did not regret it at all.

on the way to school, i listened to payphone by maroon 5. it was dimas who poisoned me with this song and got me addicted, so. i kept in on repeat and halfway to school suddenly i thought of the song's meaning and the music video and these scenes of my favorite k-pop yaoi couple baekyeol playing it out just plays in my mind.

it was completely genius and since i didn't bring my laptop, as soon as i arrived at school and finished my unfinished homework from last night, i opened the small notebook i found from last night and started writing a complete plot rundown and summary.

things you need to note: once you get an idea, write it down. you might forget it if you don't. you can write it on your cellphone memo or carry around a notebook like me. there were some ideas that occurred to me and i didn't write it and i always regret it if that happens.

so, inspiration can come from anywhere. today, i got an inspiration from a song, and from the story behind it, from dimas too. really want to get this story done soon.

and about muses; a lot of times you don't realize who is this inspiration of yours, but look a little closer and you will feel what your muse has done for you. they don't just inspire you to be creative, they inspire you to be you.

have a nice dream everyone.

heartbreaks and all that jazz.

this is nadyra writing to you on a lazy sunday from her bed.

recently, i've been surrounded by stories of broken hearts and tears from people around me that i just have to write about it: heartbreak.

during fourteen years of my life, i've experienced many heartbreaks. my heart breaks over the littlest things: when exciting plans are cancelled, when i don't get what i want, when things don't go the way i expected them to, when my favorite celebrities date (seriously) and when people disappoint me. to talk about fourteen years, that's a lot.

but the worse heartbreak, at least for me, comes from love. maybe it's my dramatic adolescent heart, but nothing breaks my heart as badly as love does.

you know that old chuck palahniuk saying, you always hurt the one you love? well, it works both ways. the one you love can always hurt you.

when it comes to people you love, we don't know why, you have this big expectations of them that somehow always ends up backfiring and hurts you instead. with big love comes big hope, and with big hope, comes big pain.

but that doesn't mean that hope is a bad thing. it's not. sometimes, it's hope that keeps you going when you have nothing else to hold on to. it's just that sometimes you have to know when you should let go.

i just have one question: what happens if you don't want to let go?

introduction and all that jazz.

okay, so hi.

i'm back on blogger after two years. well, i've forgotten a lot about my old blog (to be honest, i had to read through it before making this one). spent a lot of my time on livejournal and aff writing fan-fictions and on tumblr scrolling through pretty pictures.

so, let's start again. shall we?

my name is nadyra fauzia, i was born in june 1998, so that makes me fourteen this year. i am asian; indonesian. i am a student. i love writing, reading, singing, watching movies and shopping. i am also a k-pop fangirl and a hardcore one at that. to finish this off i am concluding that i am not some fucking introverted thirteen year old with internet connection and thick-rimmed glasses that walks the background of high school and constantly suicidal. i used to think that way, but it got old school, so–yeah.

so now that i've started new and fresh, i decided to write again. like, real life stuff and not some dreamy fan fiction about two ridiculously gorgeous korean idols fucking. like, me and my life and friends and stuff.

to start off this new blog, i will start off with some kind of faq (will link it later, i guess) for this blog and myself. here we go.

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why is the title ...and all that jazz?

'–and all that jazz' is a phrase meaning '–and such similar things.' because this blog is basically filled with stories about my life and stuff, i've decided to replace that '–and stuff' with '–and all that jazz', because it's fancy and i happen to like jazz.

why do you use english to speak when you're indonesian?

because i feel that i can express myself more in english. i actually speak it more fluently than bahasa indonesia. my friends call me 'unpatriotic' (i know right, what the hell) but hey they're violating law number 28 sub 1 about the freedom of expression, ha.

what do you post in here and how often do you post?

like i said, i want to post real life stuff. i'm currently writing an online fan fiction series and i'm on writer's block, so i think my brain needs to take a rest from fantasy and venture into the reality. i'll probably go here when my mind's jumbled up to rant, or just when i have something to tell.

where would you be if not here?

i would most likely be on twitter, and my completely pretty k-pop biased tumblr. the links to my fan fictions is here (aff), but i also write on sonyeoncheonji community. just search for the author jessiki there.

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that's probably it for now.

i don't have anything to tell you apart from how hungry i am right now, so i'm finishing this off here and will go have lunch. heard my mom cooked beef. yum.

later, dudes. muacks!