you know how your heartbeats race when you're reading a good book? you get excited and you can't keep that silly smile off your face. the way those strings of words somehow projects a movie in your head; the wonderful characters, amazing places and you get lost in between those lines. when the character hurts, you feel your heart clench, and when they're happy, you want to scream gleefully. and then you can't take it and you suddenly want to cry, even when the story's a happy one. and then even after you've finished the book, or haven't read it in a long time, it's still imprinted in your mind. even if you've read it a thousand times, you still feel the same way about it.
like after you finish it, you lose a part of yourself, have it hooked to the last page, last word before the words the end.
you know that feeling?
it scares me and fascinates me all at once; words. how they can be inadequate and at the same time meaningful, be it in strings of tales, sentences or lyrics or just simply written on a piece of paper. sometimes they are not enough and yet some other times, words are the only thing needed.
once, i have felt so miserable that i cried for so long in front of my friends. and then budi, gave me a paper with an excerpt of colplay's fix you lyrics: "and tears come streaming down your face." i remember adam gave it to him when he broke up, but then he gave it to me who's heart is torn so bad.
that piece of paper, although the quote sounds nothing comforting, eases my hurt. and i don't know why, but it did.
some say actions are louder than words. but you should know, that there are some things only understood when they are said in words.
some also say, what are words, for they are only used to describe something that we see. what matters is what we see. but you should know, words can help you see better, for there are some things hidden in plain sight, and only words are adequate enough to tell you what they are.
such power do words hold.
when you read the word cry, do you feel a pang of sadness in your heart? when you read the word joy, do you feel the strange urge to smile?
when you read a story, concocted a bazillion of different words, different functions, different meanings. it has you going up and down in a bizarre roller coaster ride. behind every term, there is a meaning to be expressed.
words.
sometimes they are inadequate.
sometimes they're the only thing needed.
